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Dark Embrace

The other night I remembered the good thing about being here. Winter this year has taken its toll on me. I don’t know what it was this year, but something made me despondent, lethargic and depressed. Winter isn’t over yet, but this week’s single digit positive degree weather, the waxing moon and clear night skies have found me sitting outside on the back step of the trailer staring out at the tree line and watching the stars wink lazily to life in the darkening sky. It’s a ritual I had when I was here the first time, but now my view of the trees is unobstructed. I missed being outside. And sometimes, not too far away, I hear a coyote howling.

I’m putting together a book of trees. I have a handmade photo album that Shelley brought me from Mexico that I’ve decided to use for this purpose. There are particular trees that I plan to take picture of at different times of the year and paste leaves from the trees.

I’m feeling fairly creative today, but I don’t have an outlet for it. I think I want to write, and even have an idea for a poem, but I haven’t found the line to start. A lot of people tell me “just write, it’ll come,” but it doesn’t always work. If I find the opening, the first line, I’ll have the tempo and mood for the poem. This one’s going to be long so I’m being patient with it.

I am:
Almost done KOTOR II!! The end is near, I can feel it.
Reading nothing in particular.
Contemplating dark things lately.

posted by September @ 10:30 AM