Reset

I See It

I'm trying too hard. I'm concentrating too much on the future, about how it should be going and not enough on just letting it happen. I'm rushing, and in doing so, missing the not just the steps, but the experience of the process.

"Slow down Xanth." He opened one eye a little and looked across the water at Tali. The myrrh scented water rippled a little as the young man closed his eye again and sunk slowly under the surface. He floated there, feeling the water around him.
"Good," she whispered to him, though his head was submerged. "Start with feeling the currents of the water. Picture in your mind soft blue energies moving along your body, joining it and the water. Become a part of it; feel yourself sinking into the water, joining it as the water becomes darker." Xanth pictured this, the wisps of energy from the water permeating his skin, joining with the energy of his own body as he sank. He smiled to himself and openned his senses to the experience. Then he heard music.
He listened for a minute, trying to identify the tune, his mind drifting. "Focus," Tali warned. Xanth pushed the music back and concentrated again on feeling the water. "Now, push your energy out through your back. Let it travel with the water currents. As it moves through the water, focus it down, like a root seeking the soil. Let it draw a line through your body, from the top of your head, down your spine, bringing the energy in you in line."
"Damn it," he muttered, trying to shut out the distracting music, but he could feel the energy dissapating. "I should have planned this better."
"You did fine, you just need more practise." Tali was trying to be soothing, but Xanth knew she was as frustrated as him. "Do you want to practise the pentagrams?"
Xanth closed his eyes, clearing his mind and took a deep breath. In succession, he drew pentagrams on his feet, knees, abdomen, chest, shoulders forehead, reciting a little prayer to the Deities for each. "Slower," Tali warned. "As you make the mark, picture it there, envision it on your skin, the elements of the bath combining to seal each." But Xanth didn't slow down, thinking about his warm bed, the new books, runes.
He finished the pentagram on his forehead and stood from the water, letting it run from his naked form. "You forgot the eyes and the palms," Tali said, her voice dissappointed.
"Damn it!"

posted by September @ 7:05 AM