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Borrowed Time

I posted a little while ago about being 32. I said once that I didn't expect to live to see my 32nd year, nor that I'd made plans beyond it. I was down for a bit because I couldn't picture my life from here on out. Last night I had a revelation of sorts, that was reenforced this morning by one of my real-world heroes, Chuck Rozanski ( www.milehighcomics.com ), who wrote in his newsletter this morning (and bear with me, it's a quote of a quote), '"Seize each day as though you stole it from the Devil himself!"'

I was thinking more or less the same thing last night. Why not treat these new days, this second shot at life as borrowed time, a chance to do what I want, instead of worrying about everyone else? Ok, that sounds selfish, but what I mean is I've done the things I set out for myself to this point, so going forward is like a second life, a new start. I guess it's basically a chance to let go of the old shit that I hang on to, and grow again. I don't have to live with the shadow of what I was or what I should be anymore. I am now different in everyway than the person I was then. And I think I can finally get behind that.

What else? Oh, I got an awesome idea for a story that I might start working on sometime in the next couple of days. I just have to keep the train from derailing before I get time to sit down and work it out. I don't want to say too much, but as a hint, I've been inspired by my recent bender of all things zombie.

"We are the revenant
Whoa, we will rise up from the dead
We become the living
We've come back to reclaim our stolen breath."
-The Distillers

posted by September @ 7:39 AM