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Altered States

"Don't resist your nature." Easier said than done.

I had a good conversation with Sonja last weekend about ego and id, about Deepak Chopra and "the watcher". She explained it (because I haven't read the Seven Spiritual Laws) as that part of your brain, a superconsciousness that watches what's going on, analyzing and overseeing. He is that part of the mind that, while dreaming reminds you that it is only a dream and tries to change things. He is the awareness of the self. I know this part of the brain very well. She explained him as "the true self", the soul. An interesting theory. I've come to know my mind fairly well, I'd say. I'm aware of the watcher, and have been for a very long time. I'd even given him a name. Is it him that started this blog, I wonder? But I don't think of him as my "true self", as my soul. Although my thoughts and processes, my every move is seen by him, affected by him, there is still a part of me that watches him, that interacts with him, debates him and analyzes him. Perhaps there are more watchers. Perhaps I worry too much about split consciousness and impending mental instability. Perhaps I'm over complicating things. I know other people don't see me the way I do. No one knows "me", but many people have many different clues. Strategy and defense.

It's almost like standing in a room of mirrors, where you see the reflection who sees the reflection who sees the reflection.... On into eternity.

posted by September @ 8:31 AM