Monday, January 23, 2006

Elements

I won’t say I had a long talk with Sonja last night, because I’m not a talker. I listen. I vaguely threw out comments about being depressed and frustrated for about a month or so, and she gave me some sage advice (as always): get over it. And she’s right. I don’t need to continually go over this in my head; I know the solution, I’ve solved the problem; next. My problems aren’t unsolvable, but I think I tend to dwell on them, tend to squeeze the last drops of puzzle out of them because I need the challenge. I’ve decided that when I get to the end of the road, that part of the problem that I can’t go any further, I need to turn around and walk away. Trying to smash down the wall with my head is only giving me a headache. I’m not taking the simple, quick-fixes, but I won’t let these things distract me from other experiences.

Furthermore, my experiences have made me more interesting, more diverse and therefore better. I don’t need to beat myself up for it, because I’ve touched some part of the divine in myself that many millions of people will never touch. I’ve actually taken a step closer to becoming a whole being. I am not 5 separate entities, I am a single entity that encompasses all the elements.

I am capable of a great many things that, although are tough to get my head around sometimes, make me unique and brilliant.

2 Comments:

At 4:16 PM , Blogger Sonja Nelson said...

ahh so you were listening :P I tend to ramble.

 
At 5:13 PM , Blogger September said...

Of course I was listening. Like I said, I look to you alot for advice. A shared understanding of simplicity that sees things differently.

 

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