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I've come to understand that I have "personalities", different sets of "moods" that affect not only how I feel, but what I'm interested in and how I live my life. These moods can sometimes last days, but more often last for longer periods of time, as long as years. I've come to identify these personalities, and simply given them names, a place within my psyche and a life of their own.

I have never been able to control them, never been able to switch from one to the other, nor been able to do anything other than influence them slightly with familiar stimuli, such as music or a particular movie, or piece of writing. Whoever happens to rule at the time determines how I react to different things in different ways. This is what I've been trying to relate very slowly with Mythology of the Mind.

I wonder, now that I have separated these personalities, identified them and given them a home in my mind whether I actually can "bring them out" at will. Can I harness the aspects, the deep rooted characteristics of my own mind to my advantage? Furthermore, should I? I've been trying lately to blend them, but what if instead I let them remain separate and call on them at will? Will I swing out of balance again? Will the darker aspects of me able to be put away when they have to be? Is this the reckless destruction the runes have been warning me about for the last couple of days?

posted by September @ 5:02 PM