Purpose
How do I describe how I feel today? Predatory still, driven. I have purpose. I feel strong, both in body and will. Hungry. Intolerant of repetitious nonsense.Me: ...since I won't be on site friday night, saturday night, and sunday night.
Boss of Boss: What do you mean?
Me: I have a wedding to go to this weekend, so I'm leaving friday after work and will be back sunday evening.
BoB: Maybe you can skip it.
Me: I've come to the conclusion that I spent too much time away from my personal life, so no, I won't be skipping it.
BoB: So when are you going to be back?
Me: (with slow, sarcastic tone) I will be back sunday evening.
I realize I should probably have had more patience for him, but for as often as he asks the same questions over and over, I couldn't help it. It reflects, perhaps, my frustration with the repetition of having to train and retrain people around here. I hate repeating myself.
Today's Rune:
Fehu- Cattle
This is the rune of monetary wealth, of earthly possession. This is actually the second day in a row that I've drawn this rune, and I'm reading it as a reminder that even though there are other things I could be doing right now, having the security of my position and wage is making life easier in the long run. I'm here for the money, and I knew it would be frustrating work for this company again.
I am:
Still playing KOTOR II and kicking ass.
Working on chapter 5 of MotM.
Reading Green Lantern Rebirth #6, New Avengers #5, and a pile of other comics Justin picked up for me on the weekend.
8 Comments:
interesting how you've described yourself as aggressive since you came home! interesting. Do you feel more balanced or do you think you swung to the other emotional extreme?
I think I've regained a bit of my natural state. More energy, more grounded. Less flighty, in any case. I do feel better though, like I'm more in control of myself.
very cool :D now that's a good feeling.
Yeah, I'm enjoying it :) I just have to keep it under control, try not to bite anyone. I think I just needed to spent some time outside, put my hands in the dirt. Maybe it was the thuderstorm, or even the grounding I did. I did so many different things, it could be a conglomeration of things.
you're probably right that it's a bit of everything. Plus you got to be with your family and spend the time focusing your energy. It's amazing how quickly we seem to erode when removed from what makes us happy-- from security, the people we love, even the simplest pleasure like gardening.
Which is the reason I will not spnd more than 10 days at a time here anymore. Even the walks in the woods around here didn't help because you can still hear the plant.
In light of my newly regained ferallity (made up word of the day), I'm looking up shamanism right now :)
oh? do tell.
Shamanism, by most accounts, is bridging the hidden worlds (where the spirits live) and our world. The study nature to learn magic, healing, communication with animals, transformation, etc. It's a topic I've always been interested in, so I thought I'd look it up. I'll do a post on our blog when I learn something significant.
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