Hunger
As the day progresses, I'm feeling more removed, more distant from people. I'm feeling sardonic, cold. My mind is hungry though. I've spent most of the day researching wiccan symbology, particularly the pentagram. I'm finding myself more and more drawn to symbols and the histories and myths that surround them. Luckily for my hungry brain, I've picked a rather large, very shrouded topic to research.On the one hand, I haven't written anything today. I'm just not in the mood for writing fiction. Every word was coming out flat and cold. On the other, I've shook the feeling of frustration I had. It seems I've exchanged it for a feeling of analytical curiosity.
My sister read my dream and became upset. She read it as a parallel between her and our uncle, the two of who don't see eye to eye, and read that they were together in the dream because they "are the same animal". I assured her we are both that animal, but have both found ways to be better. I hope she doesn't take it too hard. In our conversation today, she also asked if I would create a rune set for her. I think it would be an honour to do this for her.
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interesting conversation. that dream was bizarre.
And for me, the only thing "bizarre" about it was the fact that it had griffins. My dreams are often like this, but I generally don't think to much of them.
As for my sister, I love her to death, and it seemed she was crushed by the imagery of it.
is your uncle a monster? is your sister afraid of him?
In a sense, yes. But my sister isn't afraid of him. I don't think she's afraid of anyone. She's vera brave, but she has a big mouth and a quick temper. Her and I are alot alike :)
My uncle is a drug addict and a violent man. I think she's sees that violence in herself, the same way I see it in me. But her and I control it, whereas, probably because of the drug abuse, he cannot.
so seeing her feasting on the griffens with your uncle means that she gave in and became what you both fear?
That's how she looks at it. That's not how I see it. I was looking at it as the extemes, the family I love, that I am proud to be a part of, and the family we are capable of becoming.
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