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Little Lessons I've Learned

I perceive the world a strange and wonderful place. It is the simple things that are hardest to grasp, and we blindly accept that we are “fingerprinted” everywhere. I have become afraid to open my wallet because it always tells people where I am, what I am doing and in most cases, where I’m going. The swipe card, the surveillance cameras, the veil of the machine that really runs the world. The big business pirate, the shark with the tie and the toupee, the uncommon democratic shill who wants us to “have a choice” about who we answer to. The truth is, the voting doesn’t matter, turning off the TV doesn’t matter, not reading the news doesn’t matter. The have us all right where they want us. The police, the politicians, the pope, the pills, the secretly enhanced pineapple juice that you sometimes have in the morning because it’s different. If it really were, it wouldn’t be there in the first place.

Buy your sneakers, drink your brand name colas and beer because the bikini clad spokes model told you to. Eat your meals from a microwaved box and wonder why you get cancer. Work all the time for some nameless company, because really, it is a subsidiary of that corporation that builds the machine. And if it isn’t yet, it’s about to be. They will pay you, let you own your cars and houses and big screen TVs, your boxes for boxes, your every whim at your fingertips via the internet.... You work for them while they distract you from working for yourself. They pay you to buy their product, turning your money back to them. Become the battery that feeds the machine.

They teach us our impulses are not right, our emotions are sickness, that interacting with people face to face is inefficient. Sex is a disease, I read. That people turn to addiction because of feelings of inadequacy, but I didn’t see them search the truth: where does the feeling of inadequacy come from? I suspect it is that we are suppressed, taught that sexual experience is “sinful” and immoral, that having sexual craving is not natural, that being attracted to people, even those who are the same gender, is strange and shun worthy. It is fear of sex that sustains the sex trades. They do not acknowledge the human need for contact, the bonding of people that comes from touch, the energy that flows from person to person and the experience it carries to each. They do not acknowledge that people are attracted to other people and that it is not perversion. It is nature. So these people who are addicted to sex, to internet pornography, that are guilt ridden at having had an erection from thinking about that man on the bus or that woman in the line at the bank lock themselves in themselves, and silently masturbate to internet porn because they are afraid to approach others; that they will be rejected; that the world at large is going to throw back their heads and sneer at the perversion. They are afraid to open themselves to the world because they are berated for being human. But we have to be responsible about everything. Take accountability for what you do. I guarantee there are others out there who feel the same. I know that in unimaginable ways, people are more fucked up that you will ever be. Hurt no one, and wear a condom.

The time has yet to come where people are taught responsibility. We are taught to compete, how to make something better than someone else, but not to excel. Just do better than that guy, and if you can’t look good, make him look bad. Sue someone the first chance you get. Look for the opportunity to get every cent you can from the neighbour if you happen to fall on his steps. Get ahead by fucking your friends. Helping people has become a pipe dream while that hollow feeling they fill you with bloats you as you consume and consume. You don’t have to try if you don’t feel like it. The only thing that really matters is how you feel. Being an individual means being accepted as who you are perceived to be. Who you are is less important than who they want you to be. That’s what they want you to believe. Make a decision and stand by it. Stand up for yourself and do something that will help someone else with understanding. If you fall down, don’t blame someone, get up and try to learn from it.

If you want smoking to stop killing people, take out the additives! It’s the added chemicals that kill us, the benzene, the tar, the preservatives.

Think. Just stop and think. Not about what I’m saying, just about anything. Form an image in your mind right now and ask why it is. Go on, I’ll wait....

Trust yourself. Trust someone else. We cannot get passed the failings we all suffer from if we can’t be capable of understanding and compassion. Break free of the machine and bring people with you. Laugh and dance, cry, rage, shake your head and take a deep breath. Things are never going to get better than they are until we make the best of what we have and move forward. Wear what you want and be comfortable. Gain confidence from your skills and accomplishments and don’t be afraid to try something new. Above all, follow your instincts.

posted by September @ 10:37 PM