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Another couple of weeks have come and gone. I'm not focussed lately, probably because of the moving and everything that needs to get done for starting the new job. I've had a pretty strong female side lately. Not that THAT makes me flighty, just distracted. I see things differently, things catch my attention differently. I could explain it, but I don't think I need to.

Sonja has finally made it out to our province. I am really glad to see her again, and though I haven't been much of a host for the last couple of days, I hope she gets adjusted to things out here and decides to stay a while. At least until autumn.

Diane and I had a "chat" on the weekend. It was actually more of a fight, I guess. She pointed out something that I already knew, but wasn't aware how conscious she is of it: I don't communicate. I freely admit that I cannot talk to people on any level that isn't linear. Not that I'm a linear thinker, because I'm not, I just don't talk. I hold the conversations in my head most of the time. What I mean is, I'll start a conversation, and actually map out, in my mind, different strings the conversation could have, and then I go silent and let the conversation play itself out in my head. The truth is, I've become afraid of what people might think of me, how they may judge me, and what parts of me I will let people see. I'm going to work on this.

posted by September @ 12:33 PM