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Storm's Passing

Trynn stood near the door looking out the window. It was dark out, though the sun was somewhere behind black clouds. But it didn't rain. For three days he and Xanth had been watching the clouds build in the north and somehow always pass by. The storms were raging somewhere, the rain falling, but here it was cool and dry. Tali sat at the table behind him, her eyes still welling with tears. "Stop it," he said, not turning around.
"I can't help it," she said, looking down at her hands on the table. "How do you just push it all away? How do you not feel anything? Just sit there watching and feel nothing?"
Trynn didn't turn around, but leaned against the door frame, crossed his arms. "What makes you think I don't feel anything?" It was a question meant to distract her. He did this too often when confronted; started a debate, an argument; make them answer the question for him. Here he could twist the conversation away from the real issue.
"He feels it," Xanth said, coming to stand behind Tali. He kissed her gently on top of her head, and smiled. Her hair smelled like oranges. Trynn glowered slightly, his eyes narrowed, but he still wouldn't turn around. "He just doesn't know how to experience it. Trynn is essentially a scientist, he reads and understands and imperifies everything. He doesn't fathom where feelings come from. He can't understand them, so he watches and hopes to unlock them. He feels but translates it as energy and tries to harness that into magic."
Xanth moved to the door and looked out the window with Trynn. He smiled at the elf, unchanged except for a few more scars and a few grey hairs. "And she," he said, touching Trynn's shoulder, turning him to look at Tali, "understands that by releasing that power, by letting it flow out of her, new power can flow in. She feels the world and can draw from it. She's unpredictable, but she sees and holds the beauty of universe. Don't stop her Trynn, work with her."
Xanth opened the door and walked down the stairs that would take him to the ground below the large tree. Trynn watched him go and started slightly when Tali's arms went around his waist, her head rested on his back.

I feel better today, I think. Trynn and Tali, my opposites, air and water, together create storms, wind and rain, hurricanes and tornados, hail. I feel somewhat cleansed thinking about it this way. Like the smell of dawn after a heavy rain, everything is washed clean and seems green. I can still feel the charge of the lightning, hear the thunder rolling off in the distance. I've always been resilient.

I found the lyrics to one of Loreena McKennitt's songs, Samain Night, which I thought I'd share here. The way she sings it fills me with longing and peace.

When the moon on a cloud cast night
Hung above the tree tops height
You sang me of some distant past
That made my heart beat strong and fast
Now I know I'm home at last

You offered me an eagle's wing
That to the sun I might soar and sing
And if I heard the owl's cry
Into the forest I would fly
And in its darkness find you by.

And so our love's not a simple thing
Nor our truths unwwavering
But like the moon's pull on the tide
Our fingers touch our hearts collide
I'll be a moonsbreath by your side.

Today's Rune:
Dagaz -Day
How very fitting. When I drew this rune this morning, I asked if I was losing my mind and by this, I see light, as it were. Dagaz is success and happiness, satisfaction and a change. The dawn after the dark night, and the chance to bring new light. The day has changed and brought with it the opportunity to start again with the lessons learned from the previous night. It is suggested also that the shape of dagaz denotes ultimate balance ( IXI ). The four elements are at each corner, the male and female on either side and they meet and are joined in the middle.

posted by September @ 7:14 AM