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“What a couple of days. I've been from one end of the galaxy to the other and returned feeling.... Feeling's a good for it. The equinox is here, the sun is shining, blue sky, my eggs aren't painted and I don't care. :) I'm in a goofy mood though. I've been across the board, emotionally, lately. I'm sorry for those of you who had to witness it. I tend to flop in extreme directions and spiral away until even I don't know what the hell I'm thinking. I know the question on everyone's mind is, "is he getting professional help?" No, he's not. Just ignore him and it will go away.”
Sunday March 20/05

I’ve been feeling creative lately, but I’ve been too absorbed in “my winter mind” and the changes in mood that I’ve been experiencing. I re-read my blog from March this morning. It’s been a year, almost, that I’ve been blogging, venting, smashing my keyboard. I’m starting to see the cycles of my mind now. It’s really very fascinating.

Anyways, creative. It always starts with a vague mental picture and moves to the hands after these long lulls. I'm working on re-doing my action figures at home, complete with scale city battlegrounds. Like the working of the soil before planting. And again, like last spring (it’s not spring yet, but it was warm enough for me to walk outside in the sunshine without a coat), I’m feeling feral. My mind is moving more simply.

As I sit here, quietly smirking to myself, I can’t help but feel the cool rise of energy up my spine; the darkness returning; my confidence coming back; my disinterest in the petty triviality of the people around me.

I am:
Playing Fatal Frame II: The Director’s Cut (because they do that with everything now)
Reading Dan Brown’s Angels and Demons
Reading Iron Man: The Inevitable #2
Dreaming about being outside in the grass, hunting mice
Back, mother fuckers.

posted by September @ 8:42 AM