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Ass O'Clock

My head has been all over the place lately. Some of it is being a little unsure at work, because I don't have a place to sit or a place to receive material. I'm still feeling out the structures of who does what, and what my responsibilties are. Some of it is being in another new space, getting settled and used to living with people again. Some of it is still sorting out my mind, my spirits and trying to passively bring resolution to them. I've been trying to explain to Sonja what it is that goes on in my noggen, and I think she understands. I always feel that I'm on the verge of figuring it all out, and then my mind switches, as if the final answer is just too much and the failsafes shut it down. I'm ok to act, but not to analyze.

I dreamt about being in college again, last night. I wasn't going to my classes, I wasn't doing the assignments and I was being called into the offices of my instructors to discuss my absences. It's pretty accurate of my scholastic experiences. I skipped alot.

Tonigt I'm going home for the night. That means I'll have to get up earlier tomorrow, to be the road for around 5:15am. But I'm looking forward to spending the night with Diane. She's still uneasy about a woman from my past living with me, and I know that she'll relax, once she's had time to adjust.

posted by September @ 5:51 AM