Reset

Starting off slow this morning. I was riding in the van to work, half sleeping as usual and I had a revelation of some kind, but drfted off and lost it. Happens to me more often than I like to admit.

So, officially the word came down; we're not working thursday. It's kind of exciting, but I'm stuck without wheels since the transmission in my jeep went last week. I have to get a hold of the dealership I bought it at and let them know that I'll be needing the rental a day early. I won't be going home on wednesday night though.

I've been thinking about my insecurities for a while, and over the last little bit I've been mulling around the concept of doing less to hide them, and embracing them. The only reason it hurts so much is because I worry so much about what other people are going to do. If I defuse that, take away the influence of others, I can go forward. Easy, huh? Nice theory. The problem therein is I've been down this road, opened up and explained what I thought I knew about what is going on in my head. How is it different this time? I'm looking at the problem a different way. I've taken a broader approach. I'm trying to take things from an overall perspect as opposed to breaking it down, focussing on the pieces and losing sight of the overall theme.

What does that all mean? I don't think I'm quite ready to say that here yet, but I'm closer.

posted by September @ 8:04 AM