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Plans for the weekend: I'm going golfing tonight at about 5 for the first time this year. I've never been golfing with Donny, but I can assume he's some sort of golfer. Me, I suck but I like to play for fun. I like to just get out there and relax, walk around and hit some balls. Hopefully he's patient. Tomorrow I'm heading to Sylvan Lake to see my sister. We talked the other night, and I think we're going to maybe go camping, but there's nothing concrete. We've both been in contact with my cousin Keith, who I hardly know. He is a couple years older than I am, and we never spent any time together as kids, so I'm working on seeing if him and his fiancee want to come out too.

On the way to Christine's, I'm stopping in Sherwood Park to look at some beagle pups. I've been thinking about it for the last little bit, now that Diane and I aren't living in the same house, and I really think it's time I got a dog. I've been feeling really strong about this, and I'm prepared to do it.

Diane and I have been talking this week, and at one point I thought we'd worked things out enough that I would be able to go home and we could try again. But she's taken a step back again. She says she's not ready. She's hurt, and she's probably scared, but part of me is wondering if she's holding back to push me away. It's the same part of me that feels like she's been pushing me away for a long time. Maybe she just wants me to stand my ground, but I know how she gets when I push her.

posted by September @ 11:14 AM